When I'm depressed I usely lock myself in the room. I distance my from everyone. I just prefer to be alone. I also noticed that I would eat way more than I regularly do. I keep the fact that I feel depressed to myself, I don't talk about it to nobody. When I feel like I can't hold it in anymore I cry while alone in my room or while taking a shower.
There was a time that I believe depression took over my life. My father passed away, then shortly after my step father passed away. All of this while being in a bad relationship. I felt like I wasn't meant to be happy. Strange thoughts ran through my head every single day. I had nervous break downs, anxiety attacks, I cried my eyes out every chance I got, and on top of it all I wanted to be alone through it all. I can honestly say I was a mess but I never admitted it to myself.
Recently I was told by many friends and family members plus my very own pastor that I've been going through a really deep depression and no matter how hard I tried to hide it someone or many people would notice and bring it to your attention. That's when it hit me, it made me admit to myself, wake up and seek help. This took me over 5 long years and I thank everyone who was there for me and didn't give up on me because I could of done something crazy.
But now looking at the situation with a growth mindset I would have done things differently and much quicker. I would have keep myself occupied, I would have challenged myself a lot more, took many more risk, and keep my family/friends closer when going through things this servere. I would of admitted it to myself when I first started showing signs and then go seek help whether it was from a professional or somone I felt comfortable with. I would advise anyone else to do the same.
There was a time that I believe depression took over my life. My father passed away, then shortly after my step father passed away. All of this while being in a bad relationship. I felt like I wasn't meant to be happy. Strange thoughts ran through my head every single day. I had nervous break downs, anxiety attacks, I cried my eyes out every chance I got, and on top of it all I wanted to be alone through it all. I can honestly say I was a mess but I never admitted it to myself.
Recently I was told by many friends and family members plus my very own pastor that I've been going through a really deep depression and no matter how hard I tried to hide it someone or many people would notice and bring it to your attention. That's when it hit me, it made me admit to myself, wake up and seek help. This took me over 5 long years and I thank everyone who was there for me and didn't give up on me because I could of done something crazy.
But now looking at the situation with a growth mindset I would have done things differently and much quicker. I would have keep myself occupied, I would have challenged myself a lot more, took many more risk, and keep my family/friends closer when going through things this servere. I would of admitted it to myself when I first started showing signs and then go seek help whether it was from a professional or somone I felt comfortable with. I would advise anyone else to do the same.
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